Happiness is not as important to people as you’d think. Many people like to complain, moan, be depressed, look for problems, stay in their stuck places, judge others and themselves, be miserable, be full of anxiety, fear, point the finger at others,… the list goes on.  Many people would rather do these actions, than take action towards happiness. Why? Because it’s easier to be miserable than to acheive happiness for some. It takes some effort to get and stay happy. It may take a life style change, a divorce, quitting a job, moving away from family, not hanging out with certain “friends”, getting an education, getting married, having children, earning money, giving away all money,…again, the list goes on, to acheive happiness. 

When I was a kid, and I would hear about people living in the ghetto, inner city life, in bigger cities than where I lived, (We lived in the worst part of our town.) I could relate to their plight, but I would think to myself, “Why don’t they just walk out their front door and if they don’t have a car, walk to where they’ll be happy to live, sleep in a park or forest or at the beach, until they get a job, any job, and get a new place to live where they are happy?” This seems naive and childlike yet, I still feel this is POSSIBLE. Probable? Maybe not, but possible. Not to coin an overused phrase again, but it is true, “Anything is possible.”

How much time do you have in this lifetime? (We don’t know.)

What is your bliss? (Only you know.)

What kind of work do you want to do in this lifetime? What is your life’s mission? (This I feel has a lot to do with your “bliss”.)

How soon are you willing to live a happy life? (I’m ready now!)

What are you willing to do to change your life? (Whatever it takes.)

How far will you really shift your energy to have the happy, productive, blissful  life experience that you long for? (I’m WILLING to do it.)

How soon will you allow this to happen? (As soon as possible.)

After answering these questions with brutal honesty I have to say that I am willing to do whatever it takes to be happy starting now.  Happiness is important to me.

I can only tell you how I can answer these questions and how I can shift my energy. You’ll have to figure out how and if you want to shift your life’s energy to make changes in your life. I can only share my experience and how I do it.

First of all the key word for me is: WILLINGNESS. I’ve  learned many years ago, from an epiphany that I had that willingness is the very first step to change of any kind. If you don’t want to change or are not willing to change for ANY reason, big or small, then change is random and may or may not happen the way you want it to.

I do know that we are in charge of our reality. It may seem that everything OUT THERE is in charge, but my experience now in my life is that I am in charge of how I perceive my reality. With that in mind, it makes sense to me that it’s up to me to make my life happen or not happen. Basically, I can crawl into a hole, so to speak, and choose not to come out and that will be it. Or, I can consciously see and feel what it is that I want my life to be and go in that direction. I say, go in that direction because mostly everyone I’ve talked to may have a hint of what they want, but they don’t know how to go into the direction of what they want. They don’t know where to begin. I’ve learned to begin with physically waking up in the morning, getting out of bed, put on some clothes, eat breakfast and go out the door with the intention in mind of meeting the people you need to meet, getting the perfect job you want and being in the right place at the right time.

I’ve learned that being in the unknown about what I want to do with my life is a sacred place. It’s okay to not know what you want. The other day, Nick, (husband to be) saw a car that he really wanted and decided to trade in our old car for this new car. My first reaction was that we should keep the old car and normally I would REACT to this and put up an argument about the reasons we should keep the old car.  This day I heard the words coming out of my mouth, to my surprise! “I don’t know.” This shocked me because I realized in that moment that I felt comfortable simply saying, “I don’t know.” He bought the new car and it turned out to be a great deal in the long run. What I learned was that I could “not know” and be alright with that. “Not knowing” is a cool state of mind. It felt honest, it saved an argument, and most importantly I learned that being in the Unknown has a lot of benefits.

The Unknown contains all that we don’t know. If I stick to MY Known and I’m unhappy in life, then it’s time to try the UNKNOWN and see what that has to offer.

It’s not always easy to shift your energy.  You do the best you can with what you’ve got AND you muster all you’ve got to make the change that serves you best. De-mystifying the shift of our energy is entirely up to ourselves and how bad we want the change. I love it and let it go.

For more on this subject go to: Wild Woman’s Path section on this website.

-Cynthia Brown is a conscious trance channeler for over 20 years. Her psychic abilities provide a pure source of insight, guidance and knowledge. Cynthia can also be reached through “commenting” on this website, and is available for private, over-the-phone readings. Contact her for scheduling and rates. You may also email her at: telleroffortune@yahoo.com
***Also; check out the new greeting card website: http://www.atouchoflight.net to see some of Cynthia’s artwork.***

Recently my fiance, Nick, and I have embarked on eating less. Our reason is to lose weight we have put on over a period of time. Weight that we’ve put on because we’ve gotten older than we were when we met 5 years ago. Weight that we woke up one day and said to each other, “What the ___ is going on?” It’s as though we’ve been in a time warp and didn’t realize that weight had been applied to our bodies! We are now working out at the gym, taking healthy potions to help us lose the extra fat and eating healthier and eating less. 

When I started eating less I realized:

1.) When I wait until I’m hungry to eat, I appreciate the food better. Everything tastes better.

2.) When I eat less at each meal, I’m not stuffed and uncomfortable. I feel as though I’m not hungry anymore and I feel more appreciative of what I ate and how much I had been “given” to eat. I’m more grateful for food in general. I notice how grateful I am.

3.)When I eat less it feels like my stomach has shrunk.  I can’t eat as much as I used to. This feels good.

4.)I realized that eating has many purposes. I realized I was eating because of habit sometimes. I realized I eat to make myself feel “rewarded” for a hard days work. I could see that I ate to not feel deprived. As a matter of fact, I felt and still sometimes feel deprived if I can’t eat whatever I want. I noticed that this deprivation felt young. I realized that I can change that and I’m okay with that if it means I’ll be healthier and will lose unwanted fat.

5.) I’m realizing that this change is now a life style not a diet.

6.) I feel more aware of the act of eating and what that means to me in a new way and I like this new feeling I have around eating.

I have no idea what everyone else goes through when they are dieting. In the past, when I was a dancer and much younger I suffered from mild bulimia. I think I know, mildly, what that is like for others.

I don’t know what it’s like to be obese. I don’t know what it’s like to not be able to gain weight. I do know that every magazine for as long as I’ve been alive, has articles on new diets. I do know that I’ve always been weight conscious and have always danced or worked out to keep in shape with few exceptions. I don’t really believe in dieting as a temporary solution to an on going weight problem. I do believe that requires a life style change for the rest of your life. A change in what a person eats that will take them into their future with ongoing results that will shift their weight in a way that becomes a life style as opposed to a short term “diet”. Dieting can be an up and down roller coaster experience of weight loss and weight gain without acheiving satisfactory results. Fad dieting can defeat your purpose and make you gain MORE weight in the long run, not to mention your health can be damaged in the interim.

I have fasted in the past. What I learned was that I really appreciated each and every morsel of food I put in my mouth when the fast ended. Each taste of each sliver of apple was beyond description. (Nirvana, comes close. ) Then over time I got back into my old eating habits, which weren’t very bad, I did notice that I had habits of eating. Them came the blur of “just eating” until I’d wake up and notice a few extra pounds and cut back for awhile. Sugar was and is so addictive. Pasta was so addictive. I used to eat a dish of ice cream, now I can eat a spoon of ice cream and be satisfied. Now, if I want a dish of ice cream I have it, once in awhile.

“Everything in moderation,” is what my alcoholic Dad, used to say. (He was a great man but he couldn’t drink in moderation.) I try to follow that advice. The “everything in moderation”, advice.

My diet is for the rest of my life. I’ll move towards eating less in the name of really tasting and appreciating my food. I’ll eat healthier in the name of nourishing my body temple not destroying it. My life is changing because of these decisions and the changes do not have much to do with losing or gaining weight. I’m discovering that these changes are changing how I look at my life, how I am grateful for life. The greatest realization is that changing how, why, when and where I eat is waking me up into new ways of thinking about life. I’m de-mystifying my eating habits to myself and discovering more about who I am. I love it and let it go.

For more on this subject go to: Wild Woman’s Path section on this website.

-Cynthia Brown is a conscious trance channeler for over 20 years. Her psychic abilities provide a pure source of insight, guidance and knowledge. Cynthia can also be reached through “commenting” on this website, and is available for private, over-the-phone readings. Contact her for scheduling and rates. You may also email her at: telleroffortune@yahoo.com
***Also; check out the new greeting card website: http://www.atouchoflight.net to see some of Cynthia’s artwork.***
 

I am a Conscious-Trance-Channeler. I’ve been channeling for over 20 years.  Conscious meaning: awake and able to experience what’s being said and seen in the “third eye”, the psychic center of our brain.  I’m able to remember the symbolic images and can talk about the channeled readings that I do.

Trance meaning: I go into a self hypnotic state with my eyes closed while “reading” a person through the questions they ask. I lose track of the sense of time, and am in a blissful state.

 Channeler meaning:  the name given to one who opens themselves up like a clear, open vessel for information to come through them for themselves and others.  Sometimes people channel through their art or writing.  Some people channel through spoken word, automatic writing, paintings, music composition, lyrics, and poetry.

From my experience as a channeler these many years I’d say it’s been an interesting journey into the unknown.  It’s not been easy geting used to it, though.  I’ve felt like a freak many times.  I’ve not told people what I do many times.  I’ve been ridiculed by people even some of my own family members. 

 There is a thin veil between channeling information from this unknown place within all of us and being conscious in an everyday kind of way.  What I mean by that is, there’s psychic ability and intuition and there’s intellectual logic.  There’s knowing the future of outcomes and being able to “see” what most people cannot see and feel and there’s living life by trying to figure things out with the acquired information and circumstances that are before you.  The veil is thin because one world so to speak merges into the other world often.  I’ve asked myself a lot in the beginning “Am I feeling an intuitional tug, a psychic pull in a certain direction or am I feeling superstition or going by what I’ve learned by past experience only?  Am I feeling feelings that are leading me through life because someone told me it was this way or am I feeling that special feeling that comes from another place that gives us information that in our “normal” world just would not be possible to know?

When I channel, especially when I go into channeling, the posture, hypnotic state or trance state my breathing changes.  I feel an energy comming up from the base of my spine area and it feels like it’s “popping” in, in segments.  I feel my breathing going more into the upper nasal cavaties and at the same time I feel a feeling like my ears popping and it feels like an energy is rising up through my body in stages until it “pops” into my head area and then my voice says “Hello” and I know at that point that Fortune, the energy name I channel, is present.

 Fortune came about while I was under hypnosis.  My voice changed at some point and when asked by the hypnotist therapist, “What is your name?”, my voice said, “Fortune”.  Fortune has been identified as my Guide of Knowledge.  I accept that.  I really don’t know how I channel or why this has happened to me, but I acceept it.

It’s been the same for me for 23 years, now.

When I am in the “channeled” state I feel the thin veil between everyday and the trance channeled state. While I am channeling I have very little sense of time.  When I channel I am filled with bliss and feel a “floating” feeling, my body is extremely relaxed and I see everything in technicolor and symbolic imagery.  I “feel”, “see”, “hear”, and sense answers to questions.  Answers to questions that I have “no business” knowing about. Answers come from this trance state that I, in my waking state, would probably have an impossible chance at figuring out.  Maybe no chance.  When I’m channeling psychic images and feelings pour forth without hesitation, no thought.  A generally constant flow of feelings about a question asked, a constant flow of images describing the questions asked and words and phrases come to me and I say them readily.  Channeling in a trance state is like maybe how a surgeon feels going from his everyday personal life stepping into a hospital, putting on his surgeon’s gown and gloves and opening up a body, looking inside and reading the health of that person.  Reading the organs, blood pressure, heart beat, and breathing. Making a diagnosis from the experience the surgeon has gathered from years of schooling and first hand experience.  The difference is I’ve had no schooling in channeling and don’t need any experience to answer the questions asked.  When I’m channeling, the answers flow to me clearly.  All I have to do is show up and go into the trance state.  No expectations, no pre-planning. No getting research done beforehand.  No rehearsals.  Nothing but just showing up, closing my eyes and going into the trance state.

This process has surprised me over and over again.  Time and time again for many years.  I don’t know how I do it, I only know I can.  This is a very strange experience for me even now.  I’m always blown away by the information that comes through for myself and others.  I’ve been told, through my channeling Fortune, that this is my spiritual path and that by channeling for others and giving them answers, I too will learn.  Answers come to me about questions I couldn’t possibly know about from total strangers.  When I channel for friends or people I’ve known for years, surprisingly new information comes out that I couldn’t come up with myself.  Problems have been solved through channeling that I have not been able to come up with solution in my normal conscious state.  I’ve worked on murder cases for total strangers, missing persons, mysterious illness, realationships, business problems, film directors and producers call me, doctors, nurses, teachers, other psychics, you name it, I’ve channeled on it.

I don’t know how I channel and continue to not know what it’s all about.  All I have to go by is the outcome of what is said. I often say, “If I started channeling and I was wrong after only a few weeks of channeling, I probably wouldn’t keep channeling for all these 20 something years.”  I would have given up and known I couldn’t do it. This is not the case. It’s hard to de-mystify channeling.  The act itself is a mystery to me.  I live with it, love it and let it go.

For more on this subject go to: Wild Woman’s Path section on this website.

HEAR CYNTHIA’S INTERVIEW & CHANNELING SESSION WITH JEFFREY MILBURN ON HIS OMNI ART SALON PODCAST. SEE LINK ON THE “RESOURCES” BAR ON THIS WEBSITE

Let’s talk about debt. Just the word used to make me cringe, still does, sometimes. I’ve spent my whole life doing battle with it.  I’ve paid off credit cards for about 25 years, paid triple what I owed on them because of finance charges.

Let me get real for a moment, because that is what I have to do.

I’ve been bankrupt twice. I now have one Visa card, one Visa banking card, one health care credit card, one department store  card (that I never use). I have a student loan debt, and a couple of situations where I’m paying off OTHER people’s credit cards because they helped me pay off MY credit cards. (sick, i know)

I’m not going to be a slave to my debt anymore. I’m making a pact with myself to change my consciousness around debt. Cause, let’s face it, I wouldn’t have any debt if I didn’t create it myself. Afterall, who else is running up my bills but me, right?

I’m getting honest about my debt. I own it. It’s the part of my life that I feel yucky about, it gets me down sometimes, it’s been a monkey on my back.

I choose to pay cash as much as possible now instead of whipping out the plastic. I’ve had to live off my credit cards when i was raising my son many years ago.

I’m going to talk about it out loud. I’m gonna be honest about my debt with you. I’m gonna own it.  Love it.  I’m going to embrace it, afterall I incurred this debt, it’s all mine, it’s a part of my LIFE. I am not the type of person to go into denial and pretend that it doesn’t exist in my happy everyday life experience. I am also not the type of person that wants to live with a monkey on my back, an anvil around my neck of pressure, anxiety, and doom.

I got something out of it when I charged up those cards and now I have to PAY.  I don’t like to use the word PAY, I’m gonna use the words, GIVING BACK. I choose to give back what was given to me when I really needed or wanted it.  I like to “give back” and I don’t like the feeling of having to “pay back”. 

 ”Pay back” sounds hard. “Pay up!”,… yuck.  How about “give back”.

I picture myself with my hands out-stretched, filled with money, overflowing amounts of money, happily giving back what I owe to those that helped me when I needed help. Huge piles of money that take care of me and mine and I don’t need or have to incur debt to take care of myself anymore.  Giving back to those who gave me, no questions asked, what I needed and wanted when I needed and wanted it. That feels good to me…. I no longer want to walk around feeling burdened by this heavy feeling of hopelessness called DEBT.  I’m manifesting daily resources to nourish me and to be able to give back to those who were there for me. 

There are two names on every credit card, the instituion’s name that’s giving me the credit and my name that’s doing the spending.  We are both responsible for that debt. Make friends with your creditors. They are probably calling you more than most friends you have. If they call me I’ll wish them a nice day and tell them about my feelings around the debt. I’ll tell them I take full responsibility for my debt and how much I want to give back to them. I won’t avoid them, I’ll make them my friends.

I visiualize my debt evaporating. Each time I imagine pouring piles of money on the debt. The debt gets smaller and smaller and soon disappears and I am left with just massive piles of money that I can now use to take care of myself and those I love.

Like putting out a fire with buckets of water.

I am so grateful for the vast amounts of cash I have to be able to ”give back” what I owe and create more situations where I can aid others who also think they need and want. I choose to see others as rich, flourishing beings that give freely as I give freely knowing that, “what goes around, comes around.”

I choose to give back. No one’s forcing me to do anything. I freely and gratefully and lovingly give back. I don’t OWE anything because I KNOW that I own my debt and it is my CHOICE to give back to those who so easily gave to me. De-mystify your debt. Own it, get to know it up close and personal, like a close friend. Love it and let it go.

For more on this subject go to: Wild Woman’s Path section on this website.

-Cynthia Brown is a conscious trance channeler for over 20 years. Her psychic abilities provide a pure source of insight, guidance and knowledge. Cynthia can also be reached through “commenting” on this website, and is available for private, over-the-phone readings. Contact her for scheduling and rates. You may also email her at: telleroffortune@yahoo.com
***Also; check out the new greeting card website: http://www.atouchoflight.net to see some of Cynthia’s artwork.***